Have you ever come across a person who is/was an important part of your life and how his/her decisions were strong enough to doubt the way you were as a person? Sometimes, you just don’t understand how some people work. You feel like shaking them hard and making them realise that what they say makes absolutely no sense to you. But whenever you try to do that, not a word comes out. Again, who am I to look down on anyone’s way of thinking? To each, his own. Everybody works so differently and it’s awful when you’ve understood someone all this while but one happening makes you question all that you shared with that person. The time when you need to understand him/her the most, that’s that time it never works.
Just yesterday, you were having the best of times with somebody and today you’re reduced to just pure acquaintances. Sad? It’s tragic. Some changes are so unasked for but everybody says they’re necessary. I can't get myself to agree though. I might not get it now, but one day I will and that’s the only thing I can bank upon.
In a way, the worst way to depart is when it wasn’t any of your faults. You can’t even blame anyone for the present state. I’ve accepted the reality. Give me some more time, It should seep in by then. I’m not quick, I know.
I read this line somewhere.. No matter how hard you try to forget about something or someone, the Universe will conspire to skull fuck you with reminders.
So right. Skull fuck, I like the word.
After all the shit, I havent turned into a depressed soul or anything. I remember being almost devastated when things got screwed up with the ex who wasn’t even half as important. Hell, What am I sitting here wondering about other people surprising me with the way they work..I bloody well surprise myself at times!
But thats an amazing balls-to-you-i've-grown feeling.
Cheating is not always about sex. People can cheat emotionally too. I wonder what hurts more..
No, wait before God gets any more 'ideas' and plans to throw things at me again to make me realise what actually hurts more, I should make it clear that I'm just wondering..I dont need to 'know'. Yeah.